Thin or Happy

I have decided that I would rather be happy then be thin, yes it would be good if I could be both but no matter how hard I try that doesn't seem to be something that is going to happen well no time soon. I know I am a lot bigger then I have ever been before but no matter what I try I can't seem to slim down maybe I am not trying as hard as I could.I just find that I get down when I feel like I can't eat what I feel like and I know I am exercising n I early every day and lately I am eating a lot of fruit in fact I have never eaten so much fruit as I am now. Iwould love to have my sister Sue's body she looks good although she will tell me that is because she can't afford to eat some days not sure how true that is, what I do know that at times I look at her and think why can't I look like that. Then there is Sandra who has always had a good figure, oh well maybe one day right now I think it will do me more good if I just start to think positive and be happy with who I am.I have to tell myself that my family love me just the way I am.